Depression, House Guest, Bear, Heartbreak

My Husband’s Depression: An Unwanted House Guest

(This is a guest post from my wife, Elise)   My husband breaks my heart at least once a week. It normally happens in the course of everyday conversation. He’ll offer a glimpse into what his life is like with severe depression and instantly my heart shatters into a thousand pieces. Most recently it was […]

Temple Bells, Frustrations

The Temptations and Frustrations of Unemployment

I’ve been on the job hunt for 14 months. I’ve had nothing to do on most days for the last 6 months. Everything I imagined I might do or be has failed to materialize. It’s hard to describe the slow decay of the mind and body that unemployment foments. I have tried to keep busy, […]

Loneliness

A Deep Loneliness

There is a deep loneliness that is always with me. It wants to be talked about, and then scolds me for indulging its desire. It assures me that I am a fraud, even as it provokes me to prove myself. The loneliness is always there, always hurting me. Its loyalty a perverse reminder of what […]

Vulnerability

How To Practice Vulnerability

Vulnerability often connotes weakness in the US and other western cultures. Nonetheless, vulnerability is one of the most powerful and transformative postures we can take. In a culture that champions competition, choosing a posture of vulnerability can be difficult. There is so much emphasis on establishing an unimpeachable reputation, a veneer of power and knowledge, […]

Hope

Confessions of a Hopeful Introvert

Confession: Just because I believe in people does not mean that I am particularly excited to be with them most of the time. I have, at times, deep anxiety about having to be with people or talk to them or be in any way socially obligated to another person. My introversion has deepened over the […]

bears

I Live With Bears

I live with bears. Be cautious, but do not be alarmed. The bears I live with are dangerous, but they are not bad. They are simply bears. Their presence is not to be feared nor taken lightly. Yes, they can kill you, but they probably will not. No, they are not a problem and no, […]