Loneliness

A Deep Loneliness

There is a deep loneliness that is always with me. It wants to be talked about, and then scolds me for indulging its desire. It assures me that I am a fraud, even as it provokes me to prove myself. The loneliness is always there, always hurting me. Its loyalty a perverse reminder of what […]

Vulnerability

How To Practice Vulnerability

Vulnerability often connotes weakness in the US and other western cultures. Nonetheless, vulnerability is one of the most powerful and transformative postures we can take. In a culture that champions competition, choosing a posture of vulnerability can be difficult. There is so much emphasis on establishing an unimpeachable reputation, a veneer of power and knowledge, […]

Hope

Confessions of a Hopeful Introvert

Confession: Just because I believe in people does not mean that I am particularly excited to be with them most of the time. I have, at times, deep anxiety about having to be with people or talk to them or be in any way socially obligated to another person. My introversion has deepened over the […]

Read

What If No One Read It?

There is something much more terrifying about writing down my views than speaking them. What if my honesty costs me a job? Something I don’t care about except that I have like $150,000 in student loans (academic assurances that PhD’s are the “original” doctors don’t change the fact that I would have gotten a bigger ROI as […]

Good

What is Legal Versus What is Good

When I hear people refer to the importance of the “rule of law”, I am usually suspicious. I am suspicious of what is being given the illusion of goodness under the cover of legality. In the U.S., much pride is taken on being a country of rules where we strive to apply the law evenly, consistently, […]

bears

I Live With Bears

I live with bears. Be cautious, but do not be alarmed. The bears I live with are dangerous, but they are not bad. They are simply bears. Their presence is not to be feared nor taken lightly. Yes, they can kill you, but they probably will not. No, they are not a problem and no, […]