Depression, House Guest, Bear, Heartbreak

My Husband’s Depression: An Unwanted House Guest

(This is a guest post from my wife, Elise)   My husband breaks my heart at least once a week. It normally happens in the course of everyday conversation. He’ll offer a glimpse into what his life is like with severe depression and instantly my heart shatters into a thousand pieces. Most recently it was […]

Loneliness

A Deep Loneliness

There is a deep loneliness that is always with me. It wants to be talked about, and then scolds me for indulging its desire. It assures me that I am a fraud, even as it provokes me to prove myself. The loneliness is always there, always hurting me. Its loyalty a perverse reminder of what […]

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What If No One Read It?

There is something much more terrifying about writing down my views than speaking them. What if my honesty costs me a job? Something I don’t care about except that I have like $150,000 in student loans (academic assurances that PhD’s are the “original” doctors don’t change the fact that I would have gotten a bigger ROI as […]

bears

I Live With Bears

I live with bears. Be cautious, but do not be alarmed. The bears I live with are dangerous, but they are not bad. They are simply bears. Their presence is not to be feared nor taken lightly. Yes, they can kill you, but they probably will not. No, they are not a problem and no, […]