King

What do you do with a deposed king?

There is a question that I have posed to some of my friends and thought partners over the years regarding the ambiguous nature of undoing privilege and unjust power. It was this: ‘If you’re not going to kill him, what do you do with a deposed king?’ In this question lies an aspect of undoing […]

Depression, House Guest, Bear, Heartbreak

My Husband’s Depression: An Unwanted House Guest

(This is a guest post from my wife, Elise)   My husband breaks my heart at least once a week. It normally happens in the course of everyday conversation. He’ll offer a glimpse into what his life is like with severe depression and instantly my heart shatters into a thousand pieces. Most recently it was […]

Temple Bells, Frustrations

The Temptations and Frustrations of Unemployment

I’ve been on the job hunt for 14 months. I’ve had nothing to do on most days for the last 6 months. Everything I imagined I might do or be has failed to materialize. It’s hard to describe the slow decay of the mind and body that unemployment foments. I have tried to keep busy, […]

India

Three weeks in India and nothing to say?

As I have been traveling in India these last three weeks, my mind has been swimming with questions, reflections, insights, and surprises. So why haven’t I written more? I think there is something in me that has learned to take a wait and see approach to life. I find a lot of comfort in things […]

adios

From Adios! …. To Namaste!

Last week, Elise and I said adios to the amazing, friendly, beautiful country of Colombia. Next week, I will say namaste to India and the Himalayan mountains that first captured my imagination 15 years ago. This has truly been a journey the past 15 months. I have had the unexpected privilege of traveling internationally for […]

Loneliness

A Deep Loneliness

There is a deep loneliness that is always with me. It wants to be talked about, and then scolds me for indulging its desire. It assures me that I am a fraud, even as it provokes me to prove myself. The loneliness is always there, always hurting me. Its loyalty a perverse reminder of what […]

Vote

Why Your Vote Matters (Even When You Lose)

There is an idea nearly as old as voting that hangs in the backs of the minds of democratic participants: My vote doesn’t matter. The feeling is underscored in contemporary America by the dominance of billionaires, media conglomerates, powerful special interest groups, and local and federal governments who seem more interested in maintaining power than […]

Vulnerability

How To Practice Vulnerability

Vulnerability often connotes weakness in the US and other western cultures. Nonetheless, vulnerability is one of the most powerful and transformative postures we can take. In a culture that champions competition, choosing a posture of vulnerability can be difficult. There is so much emphasis on establishing an unimpeachable reputation, a veneer of power and knowledge, […]

Hope

Confessions of a Hopeful Introvert

Confession: Just because I believe in people does not mean that I am particularly excited to be with them most of the time. I have, at times, deep anxiety about having to be with people or talk to them or be in any way socially obligated to another person. My introversion has deepened over the […]

Saved

When She Saved My Life…

When I met her, I was more of a mess than I knew. I was a college dropout, convinced that I couldn’t learn. I was depressed in the kind of hopeless way that is even deeper than my usual morose. I very well may have run off into the woods and abandoned all relationships. That’s […]